Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



T- 30 Days

I’ve recently found time to read through the almost 200 blog posts in my reader and it was SO nice to catch up with those I’ve followed for years even if I wasn’t always able to comment. This is still my safe place and even when I go months without posting (I failed miserably at […]

Nanu Nanu

What to say? Staring at the blinking cursor against a stark white screen and hoping to put words to feelings.

The suicide of Robin Williams hit me hard. Yes, I’ve been a fan since before his debut on Mork & Mindy. That show defined my youth. And, after, I recorded every single Comic Relief […]

The Haps

A mobile toddler has dramatically changed my ‘free’ time and I have much less time to think, sit, and write in-depth posts on the various topics rattling around in my brain. Still, so much to say, so little time.

In these intervening weeks between posts, I turned forty-eight (48!). Setting aside the fact that my […]

Let’s Talk About Sex

I have been thinking about writing this post for some time, however, given that some IRL friends (who know both my husband and I) read this, I’ve struggled with what and how much to share. I am who I am, which means I am direct and honest. This isn’t only about me, so I’ll try […]

Tick Tock

And, here I am again, wondering where the last two weeks have gone that I haven’t had a chance to write. Well, that’s not entirely true, I do have one draft, but still.

I’m stealing time writing this while Baby G attempts to go down for his afternoon nap. Teeth 5 & 6 are on […]

Time, There is Never Enough

I miss writing here. I think about writing daily then the day escapes me as does the week and before I know it almost two weeks have gone by since my last post.

We had probably the best Thanksgiving ever this year. It was my two sets of aunts/uncles, my cousin and her husband and […]

Update in Bullets

I have had no time to write or even consider writing. The time change threw us for a loop and still, a week later, the boys are waking up early (before 6), so by 8 PM I am ready for bed.

I am not so much a fan of laundry list posts, but, in the […]

Glimpses & Glimmers

Having never been clinically depressed before, I will admit to being a bit skeptical as to whether I really was.  I knew, cognitively, that I wasn’t feeling like myself but over the course of the nine months since Baby G was born, I really thought it would get better or that it was just me […]

White, Oblong, Capsule

And so it begins, an attempt to improve my outlook on life. I picked up my prescription for generic Prozac today and feel like such a cliche: middle-aged, post-infertile, perimenopausal, SAHM mother of two young boys diagnosed with depression joins the Prozac nation. Yes, that’s me, rolling my eyes. However, I am trying to quiet […]

Down & Up

I’m mostly writing this to document how wild the ride with my affective state is. Yesterday was a down day as in down, down, down. I had good enough sleep the night before, woke up in a decent mood (which is easier on the days I know I’ll be working out), but struggled through my […]