Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"




**This post may be TMI (especially if you know me IRL), so, you’ve been warned**

Facts: I’m 48.  I’m perimenopausal.  I’m hypothyroid.  I’m on ADs.  I’m infertile.  I have an active sex life now, although inconsistently so (this alone is a HUGE improvement over the drought I was in, so, YAY).  […]


I know this has made the rounds of late, but I love, love, love it. I wish I had a daughter or that this was around as an anthem during my angst ridden, trying-too-hard-to-fit-in youth. But, even at 48, the reminder still resonates.


Oooh Oooh

Put your make-up […]


It is nearly impossible to fathom, much less accept, that I live, and my sons will grow up, in a world where a civilian passenger aircraft can be shot out of the sky at 32,000 feet, probably by ‘mistake’.

It is just as unfathomable what happened to my friend and her family. It has weighed […]

100,000 and a Break-Through

I noticed the number of page views was in the 90,000s not too long ago and, as of this morning, this blog, where I sometimes feel I share too much but know I need to, hit 100,110 views since its inception on January 17, 2010. It seems like something that should be celebrated, just knowing […]

Some Things

I have a lot on my mind and sometimes the only way for me to find relief from ruminating is to come here, this safe place of mine, the one I see less and less of even though I need it more and more, and jot some things down. I am at peace yet have […]


It has hurt me on some primal level that my parents didn’t even acknowledge my birthday. It’s a feeling I can’t seem to shake, being abandoned by two sets of parents. Me, the parentless child.

Kinship is the only thing that makes me feel better…knowing that I am not alone. It isn’t even the awareness […]

The Haps

A mobile toddler has dramatically changed my ‘free’ time and I have much less time to think, sit, and write in-depth posts on the various topics rattling around in my brain. Still, so much to say, so little time.

In these intervening weeks between posts, I turned forty-eight (48!). Setting aside the fact that my […]

We’re Melting

It is going to be 102 degrees here today and warmer tomorrow. This is record breaking heat even for Southern California for mid-May. We’ve determined that G gets a heat rash (legs, arms, torso) when the temperatures get over 90 degrees which they have been on/off since April. I’m still not sure what the most […]


I am feeling much better since starting meds to treat pericarditis last Friday. I am awaiting a response from my doctor to see how long I should continue meds (the doctor I saw indicated two weeks and I am one week in). Today is the first pain- & chest tightness-free days I’ve had. I can’t […]

Pericarditis. Again.

If you have been reading since I was pregnant with Baby G, then you might remember that I developed pericarditis when I was 35w along and had to be hospitalized. I wrote all about it here.

Once I was accurately diagnosed and began treatment, I did start feeling better within a few days. I hope […]