Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



These Are the Things

I always knew I wanted to be a mother, or, perhaps better said, it never occurred to me that I wouldn’t be one. Given my challenging relationship with my own mom and that I was adopted, I created a folder in my mind of the kind of mom I hoped to one day be and […]

The Today Show’s “Creating a Miracle” Segments

As someone who has been affected by and involved with infertility for over 10 years, I always eagerly anticipate main stream media attention to the struggle and processes that face couples undergoing IVF. I usually hold my breath through the segment, hoping, Hoping, HOPING, they’ll get it right, use the right terminology, set the right […]

Aisha Tyler’s Infertility Struggle

While I don’t believe that celebrities have an obligation to share details about their personal lives, I appreciate it when they do, especially when it involves infertility. Aisha Tyler recently visited The Talk (where she was once a co-host) and revealed her own struggle to become a mother, what it was like for her and […]


I had lunch with an old friend (our kids went to the same preschool but I haven’t seen her since we left 3 years ago). She has two boys, ages 7 and almost 10. She suffered from infertility and decided that adoption was her path. She adopted her younger son, first, as an infant, and […]

A Multitude of Thanks

It dawned on me when I was in the shower this morning, that, unlike after my successful cycle with my older son wherein I wrote a heartfelt note and bought a bottle of Cristal for my RE, I hadn’t properly or formally expressed my thanks this time.  And, this time, gosh, this time is so […]

Making Peace

I have spent the majority of my life feeling betrayed by or disliking my body.  My body has been battered by serious injuries (broke my femur in 2 places in the accident, broke my right arm falling off my bike, cut my chin open hitting a curb on my bike and flying over the handlebars, […]

Mine as Mine

I am feeling better having gotten some decent sleep last night. It really improves my mood, to, you know, sleep. We decided to move the Rock n Play into our room by my side of the bed and put Baby G in it after the 11PM feeding. There is a lot of crying when he […]

Tears of Joy for a Friend

I have one friend who is cycling at the moment who just got a positive HPT the night before beta.  I feel so out of the loop, knowing no one else who is trying at the moment, not even fellow bloggers.  I have been counting the days post transfer, knowing she was going to test […]

My Wish for You

I have spent more than a fair amount of time in recent weeks marveling at Baby G. And, by marveling, I mean staring at him, kissing him, taking in his every feature, breathing him in and praising the universe that he is here, the missing piece of the puzzle that brought the complete picture of […]

Re-Visiting (NIAW)

It seems fitting that in the middle of NIAW, I am reminded that this happened exactly one year ago today. I could not have predicted then, with a beta of 48, that I would be here, a year later, with a 4 month old healthy baby boy. I just could not have. Infertility and RPL […]