Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



This is What I Know

What I know going into 2016 and approaching my 50th birthday:

1. Gratitude and kindness are free and I will continue to employ both daily. 2. I know, unequivocally, who my tribe is, some of whom I’ve not met in person, but who have been in my corner in the darkest of times. I will […]

Be at Rest, Lisa Bonchek Adams

I am saddened by the death of Lisa, someone whose blog I’ve linked to here before and that I’ve followed for over a year. Her writings as she lived with metastatic breast cancer and faced her own death had a profound impact on me.

She often ended her posts with this quote and it is […]


The phobia I don’t have. Happy Friday the 13th!

So many thoughts rattling around in my head, each deserving of a thoughtful post, but where is the time to write? I am happy to be here, in this space, in this moment, while G is napping and my older son is at Lego day camp. […]

All By Ourselves

My husband and older son are leaving tomorrow morning for NJ for 5 days so that our son can be the ring bearer in a wedding. My husband’s entire family is on the east coast and we haven’t been back since our now 6 year old was 2 1/2. This trip has been more than […]

Tears of Joy for a Friend

I have one friend who is cycling at the moment who just got a positive HPT the night before beta.  I feel so out of the loop, knowing no one else who is trying at the moment, not even fellow bloggers.  I have been counting the days post transfer, knowing she was going to test […]

Various & Sundry

I’ve been without a block of time to write, with the exception of the NIAW post but have things I want to say.

We are >< close to finalizing the application process in order to change elementary schools for our older son. It has been more stressful than I planned. Not so much the worry […]

The Kindness of a Stranger

I do want to write, briefly, that a reader of my blog, who I’ve connected with via many emails off-blog, and who lives near the town where my birth mother lives, is, as of the writing of this post, heading to the town’s local library in the hopes of uncovering a picture of my birth […]

On Being Done

I could write about the fact that I am still sick, coughing up a veritable lung even today.

I could write about my reaction to and perception of the tragic and heroic events that unfolded throughout the week in Boston.

I could write about how I feel about raising two young sons in an increasingly […]

I’m Grateful… & I Wish…

I’m grateful that:

I knew where to turn when I was struggling to get and stay pregnant. I had excellent care and partnership from practitioners, and support and love from friends. I stuck with it, even through the heartache of 6 miscarriages and never having even close to an adoption match. we had the financial […]

Friendly Without Being Friends

I didn’t want to leave you hanging re: my meeting with K.  We met for breakfast at a local restaurant.  I hadn’t seen her in several weeks and our last social engagement was the mom’s night out in early June.  I wasn’t sure how our exchange was going to go or when in the conversation […]