Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



Ugh, OB Appt, 28w6d

Because I am seeing the MFM weekly, it hasn’t made sense to also see my OB (and this is also because we know my OB will be off when my scheduled c-section is planned, so there really is less of a need).  However, because she is local and the MFM is not and because tomorrow […]

Preparing (Gulp!) + First (& Only Belly Shot (So Far))

It is saddens me deeply the myriad ways that infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss robs us of the joys of being pregnant.  One of the profound and specific ways it has affected me is in my resistance to doing anything that would suggest that I expect to have a live, take home baby at the end […]

The Art of Noticing

One of the things that compounded the difficulty with my prolonged bed rest during my pregnancy with my son, was that I never got to interact with the public.  No stranger ever asked me how far along I was, when I was due, or if I knew the sex of the baby.  I fantasized about […]

MFM Appt, 27w6d

Today’s visit was better than I thought it was going to be going in.  It is impossible to know, from week to week, what is exactly happening and I have given up trying to predict.  But, what I can say, is that even though it has not been recommended, I do try to take it […]


My mood, and therefore my outlook, is directly proportional to the position if this baby and his movements. He seems to be in a transverse position, facing up. That means that I feel his movements outward and upward instead of inward and downward (which is highly disconcerting). So, not feeling pressure on my cervix and […]

Fighting the Demons

My reaction to my shortening cervix is proving much harder to control than I expected. Trying to be OK with living my life, while taking it easy when I can, is almost impossible for me to do. And, when I have evenings like last night, when this baby’s movements were all reverberating at/on/around my cervix, […]

Email Exchanges

After returning from my MFM appointment yesterday and processing the information about the continued shortening of my cervix, I emailed my MFM to see if there is anything specific I should be doing to manage this pregnancy.  The below is our exchange which helped me feel a LOT better.

“Dr. F: I know […]

MFM Appt, 26w6d

How I am managing to keep my wits about me, I’m not quite sure.  My appointment this morning revealed further cervical shortening to between 1.5 – 2.0 cm, depending.  The beaking is a now very pronounced and alarming funnel (alarming to me, just upon seeing it).

The good news is that my blood pressure is […]

Multitude of Gratitude

I believe that gratitude is a state of being.  It isn’t a passing thought or a reaction to a positive event or outcome (although that could be part of it) but is a conscious state of mindful awareness of the bounty in one’s life and in the lives of those one cares about.

I also […]

MFM Appt, 25w5d

My husband joined me on this visit because, well, I just wasn’t sure what we’d learn and I didn’t want to be there by myself.  And, if she did order a change to my activity/lifestyle, I wanted him to hear it from her directly.

We started by doing an abdominal u/s of baby.  She took […]