I will NOT abandon this space. Just knowing that it is here as a touchstone is comforting. I enjoy the writing process. I need a place to gather my thoughts and, frankly, I appreciate every single comment. I share things here that I can’t/won’t/don’t on FB or anywhere else. As the banner says, My place […]
I posted recently that my mom sent a letter to my birth mother. Since my last few attempts at corresponding with my birth mother (including the floral arrangement I sent her for her birthday in April) have gotten nary a response, I wasn’t sure if she would respond to my mom. But, she did:
Not fair to leave you hanging but the back story to my re-involvement with my parents isn’t all that grand. My mother was in the hospital a couple of months ago to treat a recurrence of diverticulitus. She was very sick and in a lot of pain. I believe that this particular bout was severe […]
I am taking my 50 before 50 seriously and wanted to get this posted by last Friday in order to fulfill my #30 entry of posting at least once/wk. At the point I hit publish on my last post, the virus must have already been working its way through my system as by a week […]
The phobia I don’t have. Happy Friday the 13th!
So many thoughts rattling around in my head, each deserving of a thoughtful post, but where is the time to write? I am happy to be here, in this space, in this moment, while G is napping and my older son is at Lego day camp. […]
It has hurt me on some primal level that my parents didn’t even acknowledge my birthday. It’s a feeling I can’t seem to shake, being abandoned by two sets of parents. Me, the parentless child.
Kinship is the only thing that makes me feel better…knowing that I am not alone. It isn’t even the awareness […]
A mobile toddler has dramatically changed my ‘free’ time and I have much less time to think, sit, and write in-depth posts on the various topics rattling around in my brain. Still, so much to say, so little time.
In these intervening weeks between posts, I turned forty-eight (48!). Setting aside the fact that my […]
It is going to be 102 degrees here today and warmer tomorrow. This is record breaking heat even for Southern California for mid-May. We’ve determined that G gets a heat rash (legs, arms, torso) when the temperatures get over 90 degrees which they have been on/off since April. I’m still not sure what the most […]
The letter was delivered to my birth mother yesterday. Now, I wait.
A friend asked me if I was nervous and I actually hadn’t considered how I was feeling. Nervous? No. Hopeful? No. I told her that I have no expectations, but that’s not entirely true, either. I guess I mostly feel frustrated, disappointed that […]
I received this question via email and I answered directly but I thought it was worth posting here since I know there are others with donor gamete conceived children who read this blog who might be curious (in addition to those who have adopted and those who are adoptees themselves):
“Can I ask […]