Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"




Two years ago today*, I transferred three thawed embryos that hadn’t developed beyond their cell counts when they were frozen:

The only thing that gave me a shred of hope was that they were all alive and one was 8 cells.  But it seemed the deck was stacked way against us and that we’d […]

A Multitude of Thanks

It dawned on me when I was in the shower this morning, that, unlike after my successful cycle with my older son wherein I wrote a heartfelt note and bought a bottle of Cristal for my RE, I hadn’t properly or formally expressed my thanks this time.  And, this time, gosh, this time is so […]

Mine as Mine

I am feeling better having gotten some decent sleep last night. It really improves my mood, to, you know, sleep. We decided to move the Rock n Play into our room by my side of the bed and put Baby G in it after the 11PM feeding. There is a lot of crying when he […]

My Wish for You

I have spent more than a fair amount of time in recent weeks marveling at Baby G. And, by marveling, I mean staring at him, kissing him, taking in his every feature, breathing him in and praising the universe that he is here, the missing piece of the puzzle that brought the complete picture of […]

May the Fourth be with you!

Who knew that May 4th would have such significance in my life.  One year ago today, what was on my mind was having a 4th beta, not being able to hold out until my first ultrasound the following week.  It would be the last beta I will ever have in my life and decidedly the […]

A Year and a Day Ago

I so meant to post something yesterday, but, the bleeding returned (it seems to have finally stopped completely and I did speak with my OB and feel like we have a plan) and I was still not feeling great, so I missed the day, but did not miss thinking about how much my life has […]

A Dawning

It has gnawed at me, why this second time parenting has been so hard for me. It just isn’t that I am older or that I have another child to parent, it is something else, too. This is hard to share as I do not want to give the wrong impression but I’m nothing if […]


My next ultrasound is tomorrow at 9:15AM PDT.  I appreciate any good thoughts you’d like to pass along.  I will be 8w.

In taking your advice, I have not confronted or otherwise dealt with the situation with K. Things have gotten beyond awkward but I think she is too intimidated by me to confront me. Nothing […]

U/S #2, 6w5d

I started having pain in my left side on Mothers Day morning, so much so that I stayed in bed most of the day because whenever I walked it killed me.  It is hard to describe, but essentially if I bore weight on my left leg I felt a deep pain in my left side […]


I am relieved and elated to report that there is ONE embryo, measuring 6w3d, with a prefect heart beating at 120bpm.  My EDD is 1/1/13.

I did feel surprisingly calm while waiting for my RE to come into our room.  I did not look at the screen at first to just give him time to […]