Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



10:15 AM PDT

I am grateful to all those who want to pray or think good, positive thoughts for us during our ultrasound this morning.  Some have asked what time our appointment is so that they can think of or pray for us at that moment.

Two hours from now, we’ll know.

I thank anyone who would hold […]

39 Hours

In 39 hours we’ll know more about what is going on in utero.  This week has been easier than others mostly because I feel pregnant, so my bad thoughts are not on endless loop.  I am also trying, and mostly succeeding, at staying in the moment, knowing that there is nothing I can do to […]


Thank you for the replies to WWYD.  As I predicted and because she believes we are better friends than we are, she is pressing me to get together for coffee next week.  I am trying to keep her at arms length until I at least get past my ultrasound on Friday, and responded that the […]

Beta #4, 20dp3dt

So, I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t hold out until my first ultrasound next Friday without some confirmation that this pregnancy is continuing. I haven’t lost my collective shit, but it is hard to believe that things are progressing with so few physical reassurances. I was hoping for a value of 3,100 (which would have […]

Beta #3, 16dp3dt

First, let me say again, that having these beta results delivered via text was THE best decision I ever made.  I am SO glad that my clinic went along with it.  I know that it is unconventional, and probably most clinics wouldn’t do it, but I had already established a texting routine with my nurse […]

Free your Mind

I am hoping for continued positive beta progression tomorrow when I go in for beta #3.  I cannot formulate the words to express how badly and deeply I want this pregnancy to develop.  For the first time in almost 5 years, I am currently relieved of the burden of planning, considering, discussing, conjuring, negotiating, or […]

Out From the Shadows

Through our years of ART and before I started this blog, I have run the gamut of telling a number of in real life friends that we were cycling to telling no one.  I kept this last cycle very close to my vest.  I do have some close IRL friends who read this blog who […]

I Get So Emotional, Baby

Now that I have had one set of normally doubling betas and have a few days before my next check, I have some time to let myself be in the moment of this pregnancy.  Of course it is very early and, as such, seems very tenuous.  For me, with previously diagnosed incompetent cervix, there will […]

Beta #2 (12dp3dt)

While asking my nurse to text me was the best way for me to get the news, I underestimated just how many other texts I get in the course of a morning.  I was already on pins and needles when text after text that was NOT her came in.  I subscribe to get discount coupons […]


And so, the mind fuck that occurs between betas and will continue from repeat beta (provided they actually do rise) and heart beat scan in the 6th week, has begun. I had a lot of cramping last night for about an hour after dinner. I drank my weight in water, lied down and they did […]