Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



Let’s Talk About Sex

I have been thinking about writing this post for some time, however, given that some IRL friends (who know both my husband and I) read this, I’ve struggled with what and how much to share. I am who I am, which means I am direct and honest. This isn’t only about me, so I’ll try […]

Working My Way

I decided against trying to take Baby G to a 90 minute psychiatry appointment and opted to see my primary care physician first. There are a number of reasons for this but chief among them is that she could get me in quickly, she knows me, she has my medical and medication history, and the […]


Thank you so much for your care and concern regarding my post yesterday. Thank you, too, for sharing your personal experiences with your relationships and with depression.

I did send an email to my internist and have yet to get a response (which is unusual). I also sent an email to my therapist and included […]

Hot Pants

I’m Italian and a Taurus and physically I’ve always run hot.  I’m the one who goes out in winter without a wrap or a jacket and in short or no sleeves.  I remember, as a child, my grandma always telling me to put a sweater on or I’d catch “a death of a chill”, but […]

Making Peace

I have spent the majority of my life feeling betrayed by or disliking my body.  My body has been battered by serious injuries (broke my femur in 2 places in the accident, broke my right arm falling off my bike, cut my chin open hitting a curb on my bike and flying over the handlebars, […]


Thanks in large part to the comments here and to two well timed visits from local friends, I made it through the five days without my husband and older son. It was far rougher than I thought it would be which is part of the reason I reacted so strongly. In addition to having no […]


Adjectives I would use to describe myself in terms of my approach to life: resourceful, level-headed, pragmatic, dependable, even-keeled. I was completely caught off-guard with my runaway emotions yesterday. And, while I am feeling slightly better today (as in I have not cried, I feel in charge of my emotions instead of the other way […]

Various & Sundry

I’ve been without a block of time to write, with the exception of the NIAW post but have things I want to say.

We are >< close to finalizing the application process in order to change elementary schools for our older son. It has been more stressful than I planned. Not so much the worry […]

Hump Day

I’ve never much liked that phrase, hump day, but barring anything more creative coming to mind, that’s what today’s post is.

First, thank you for the concern for my health, both here and privately.  I had a lengthy conversation with my OB/GYN on Monday and by then the bleeding had slowed considerably.  She said that […]


My first post partum, post c-section, post breast feeding period started a month ago. It came on slow, and, given I’d barely stopped bleeding from my c-section, the ending of one melded into the beginning of the other. It was light and watery and more annoying than anything.


Tuesday evening when I started bleeding […]