Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



Out of sorts

Let me begin by catching you up. This has been a sick house for the last month. It started with a run-of- the-mill cold, caught by my son, at his petri dish preschool. That morphed into ear infection #1 which also included a deep chest cold. A round of anti-biotics later he was seemingly on the mend; that is to say until he caught a stomach flu which lead to an endless cycle of vomiting and diarrhea that lasted 14 days. We finally dug ourselves out of near non-stop laundry doing and bed linen changing just in time for ear infection #2 to set in. That was followed by yet another head cold with fever and runny nose galore.

Meanwhile back at the ranch, as Mother’s Day was approaching and we were set for a weekend getaway to Palm Springs, we had a 72 cancellation window where we had to make a decision whether to go or not. We elected to go, and LUCKILY, T was good to go, however, both my husband and I came down with a horrendous chest cold of our own. Let’s see, that was Thursday, May 6 and we are just coming out of it, and by we I mean me but my husband is coming around, too.

In the midst of all this illness, I lost my job. Not in the traditional way that one loses one’s job. The parent company of the company I worked for bought a national competitor of ours. What seemed like a straight forward acquisition turned out to be anything but. The company they acquired was 1/3 our size in revenue, employees, etc., but it turned into a sort of reverse hostile takeover with the newly acquired company integrating us, and not the other way around. Needless to say, my boss, the COO, was unceremoniously ousted after 21 years of service and I did not want to wait around for them to figure out what to do with me. Instead, I sought the counsel of counsel, and went on the offensive basically forcing them to package me out. So, after 3 months of “transition” time (which turned out to be nothing more than me delivering a spreadsheet of my in process tasks and projects and corresponding contacts and recurring meetings), my last day was a week ago Friday.

Which all leads me to being very out of sorts. I had an illustrious 15 year career but one that long ago served its usefulness to me in terms of professional satisfaction. It truly is the end of an era. Given the industry I was in and my disdain for it, it’s unlikely that I will seek out employment in it again (full disclosure, though, if my boss returns to it after sitting out his required year and I haven’t found another path, I reserve the right to reconsider).

And, while each of these will likely get its own full post, and in no particular order, here are the other reasons I am out of sorts:

1. In another lifestyle changing event, my husband, who has been home part-time with our son for the
last two years while I worked full-time, is himself returning to full-time employment on Monday.
Essentially, he will be working two jobs, and will be gone from 8:30 – 6:30. This will represent a
Copernican change for my son and me.

2. I really don’t have any idea what I will do for work or when. A return to work is in my future, most
assuredly, but I have no inclination as to what/when/how that will materialize.

3. We are still looking to buy a house, and have been, since October, 2009. With the change in our
financial state, I am not sure how/when/where that will play out.

4. While I wouldn’t say I have clarity around the sibling issue, I will say that this last month has tested
whether that is what I truly want. But, even if that’s only something I will only
admit to myself in a whisper, I also know that it is not only or entirely about me. The desire to have
a sibling has been as much or more about my son.

5. I have 40 – 50 lbs of weight to lose and I will and must embark on that journey NOW.

6. I have decided to write a book, a memoir. I have a compelling story to tell. Wish me luck.

7. We are knocking around the idea of renewing our vows this year. It will be our 7th wedding
anniversary, our 10th anniversary together, and after the long struggle to have our son, seems
apropos. I don’t want it to be a roll of the eyes, “they’re doing what?” type of event, but something
to celebrate how far we’ve come together. I am writing this post with my husband sitting next to me
on his own laptop and my overwhelming feeling is that I love him more now because of all we’ve been
through together and would like to celebrate it with those who have been supporting us along the
way. Plus, I know how to throw one hell of a party and life is short, so why the fuck not?!

I have so missed keeping up with everyone’s blogs and hope to catch up and comment this weekend.

We returned to our Farmer’s Market after a three week hiatus and filled our kitchen with: cherries, strawberries, blueberries, Fuji apples, broccoli, asparagus, corn, potatoes, onions, a free range/hormone/anti-biotic free tri-tip, and fresh baked oatmeal and oatmeal/chocolate chip cookies. How lucky am I?

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