I am relieved and elated to report that there is ONE embryo, measuring 6w3d, with a prefect heart beating at 120bpm. My EDD is 1/1/13.
I did feel surprisingly calm while waiting for my RE to come into our room. I did not look at the screen at first to just give him time to see what he was going to see. At some point I looked over and saw the one sac and the flicker of a heart beat. I held my breath as I asked him to do a thorough sweep of my uterus to make sure that he didn’t think he saw another. However, given that this beautiful one was measuring right on for where it should be, I felt reasonably sure that we had a singleton.
I had him show me the heart beat over and over and asked that we get to listen to it more than once. It is amazing, that this teeny, tiny organism has a clear and recognizable heart beat. I love that beating heart.
He said he has never had a patient so relieved to NOT be having twins. He hugged me four times during the course of our visit and it is so touching to have the enthusiastic support and feel the warmth from him and his staff. It is humbling to have that many people invested in our positive outcome.
I return in two weeks and we will begin weaning off meds. I’ll have one more visit after that and will then be released to my OB (and I may actually switch to an OB closer to our home, but I need to fully consider that).
I thought I would cry and had there not been so many people in the room (my RE, a nurse, a med student!, and my husband), I probably would have. I know I was holding my breath and I said a silent prayer of gratitude. I truly felt the collective consciousness of those who held us in their good thoughts and I thank you.
This is the next in a long line of hurdles to actually bringing home a baby, but I continue to be humble and grateful to have been given this chance. Sometimes, I can’t believe this is happening to me, to us, to my family. It feels, for the moment, that the universe has my back.
“If you want to be happy, be.”