Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



U/S #2, 6w5d

I started having pain in my left side on Mothers Day morning, so much so that I stayed in bed most of the day because whenever I walked it killed me.  It is hard to describe, but essentially if I bore weight on my left leg I felt a deep pain in my left side about ovary level.  If I was seated and stood up, it hurt.  If I twisted, it hurt.  If I was lying down or otherwise motionless, I felt nothing.  At any rate, when it was still the same or worse yesterday, I did check in with my nurse to see what she thought we should do.  My RE seemed perplexed and recommended rest but I made an appointment for today (thinking ectopic pregnancy) if things didn’t improve or got worse.  Even though I felt slightly better today, I kept the appointment because I wanted a detailed ultrasound of my left ovary and cysts to hopefully rule out ectopic and I wanted a chance to see how things were going with the pregnancy.  Yes, it has only been 4 days since my last ultrasound.  Sue me.

He did do a thorough exam and I am tender on both my right and left sides (I have one cyst on my right ovary and two on my left).  It does not appear that an ectopic pregnancy is at the root of my pain but it was unclear as to what is.  There is no blood in my uterus or in my tubes, which could also cause pain.  The cysts have remained consistent in size, so growth isn’t a factor either.  We agreed that I would continue to rest and come back immediately if the pain worsened.

The embryo is measuring 7w1d (I am 7w tomorrow) and the heart rate is now 125bpm.  It is louder and much more distinct than just four days ago.  The yolk sac was clearly visible but the embryo is pressed against the wall of the sac which is against the wall of my uterus, so it was hard to visualize much.

My next u/s is still scheduled for Wednesday, May 23 when I will be eight weeks pregnant.  I am still having a hard time believing (and finding daily reassurance) that things are continuing, but they are.

As I was getting ready to leave my appointment, I noticed that all the nurses, coordinators, the med student, and my RE had congregated outside the consultation room I was in.  They presented me with a lovely birthday card they all signed, a bouquet of beautiful sunflowers, and each wished me a heart felt happy early birthday.  It moved me to tears as they hugged me and expressed their warm congratulations on this pregnancy.  It is so humbling to have these care givers so enthusiastically invested in our good news.

For now, I continue to take things one day at a time while taking nothing for granted.  I try not to beg the universe too much or too often for a successful outcome but its hard not to dip into desperation sometimes.  I am so attached already to this gift, that I have to rein myself in emotionally.  I wish I didn’t have to.  I wish that ignorance was bliss.  But those simply haven’t been the cards I’m usually dealt.  Cautious optimism is a more prudent, if more difficult, pursuit.

“As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.”
~John Fitzgerald Kennedy

9 comments to U/S #2, 6w5d

  • You have such an amazing story. I sincerely hope that this pregnancy is filled with joy and happiness. Best of luck to you and your family.

    ICLW #26

  • Happy (belated?) birthday! What an amazing gesture on the part of your clinic staff. And I’m glad you were able to sneak in another ultrasound. I often fantasized about having one of those damn machines in my house — didn’t Tom Cruise supposedly have one when his wife was pregnant with Suri? Hoping the pain soon becomes a thing of the past, and look forward to hearing how that 8-wk appt goes.

  • Very strange about the pain, but I’m glad that everything seems to be okay. And how sweet of your doctor’s office to do that. I hope you have a wonderful birthday!!!

  • Anna

    Glad to hear everything is essentially ok. Cautious optimism sounds just right to be going on with. HOping that the pain goes and stays gone,x

  • Tireegal

    And I don’t know if you care much about astrology but I had you for an earth sign and Taurus it is! Perfect!

  • Tireegal

    That’s weird about the pain and must have been scary! I’m glad the pregnancy is continuing so beautifully, and I hear you on the day by day step by step approach but it must take it out if you when you are trying to keep your emotions at calm and peaceful despite some trepidation.
    Your RE and staff are so nice! And Happy Birthday to you!

  • Lovely that they thought of you and congratulated you like that :) Wonderful news about your US and hope your pain disappears soon. Thinking of you xoxo

  • Congratulations on your pregnancy!! Sounds like you are under great care.

  • Mo

    hmmm….that is a puzzle. corpus luteum maybe? sorry you’re in pain. but SO SO glad all is still looking so good!!


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