My mood, and therefore my outlook, is directly proportional to the position if this baby and his movements. He seems to be in a transverse position, facing up. That means that I feel his movements outward and upward instead of inward and downward (which is highly disconcerting). So, not feeling pressure on my cervix and not feeling like this baby is going to kick through what little is left of my cervix or break his sac in doing so is abundantly helpful.
This week has also been difficult for 3 newly pregnant friends. After back to back strong betas, Serenity experienced some bleeding that is making it hard for her to be hopeful. Another friend’s betas didn’t quite double and even after seeing a sac in the uterus at 4w5d, her hcg levels dropped signaling a back to back chemical pregnancy (and, in the midst of what she is going through she sent me flowers. Completely unexpected, perfectly timed). And, yet another friend has had slow rising betas, saw a sac yesterday, at 6w, and needs to go back next Friday to see if things are progressing. My heart is with all of them as they face these difficult times.
My son’s school is closed on Monday and I am trying to figure out what to do with him. I don’t want him to have to spend all day at home with me, but I am weary to plan an outing. He might be able to go to a friend’s for a play date in the afternoon which would be a huge help.
My next MFM appointment is Tuesday and Wednesday will be 28 weeks. Neither can come soon enough. Tick tock.
“Courage is fear holding on a minute longer.”
~George S. Patton