Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"




My mood, and therefore my outlook, is directly proportional to the position if this baby and his movements. He seems to be in a transverse position, facing up. That means that I feel his movements outward and upward instead of inward and downward (which is highly disconcerting). So, not feeling pressure on my cervix and not feeling like this baby is going to kick through what little is left of my cervix or break his sac in doing so is abundantly helpful.

This week has also been difficult for 3 newly pregnant friends. After back to back strong betas, Serenity experienced some bleeding that is making it hard for her to be hopeful. Another friend’s betas didn’t quite double and even after seeing a sac in the uterus at 4w5d, her hcg levels dropped signaling a back to back chemical pregnancy (and, in the midst of what she is going through she sent me flowers. Completely unexpected, perfectly timed). And, yet another friend has had slow rising betas, saw a sac yesterday, at 6w, and needs to go back next Friday to see if things are progressing. My heart is with all of them as they face these difficult times.

My son’s school is closed on Monday and I am trying to figure out what to do with him. I don’t want him to have to spend all day at home with me, but I am weary to plan an outing. He might be able to go to a friend’s for a play date in the afternoon which would be a huge help.

My next MFM appointment is Tuesday and Wednesday will be 28 weeks. Neither can come soon enough. Tick tock.

“Courage is fear holding on a minute longer.”
~George S. Patton

4 comments to Mood

  • Anna

    I hope that your son’s day out of school went well yesterday and that you’re still feeling ok and the littlest boy isn’t wriggling the wrong way round. I also send good wishes to all your friends, dealing with their difficulties. I hope that your appointment goes well today and am keeping everything crossed for you,x

  • Je said it better than I could. I can’t thank you enough for the support this weekend. Really, it’s been a bit of a lifesaver. Thank you.

    You and your little boy remains in my heart. You’re doing great, I hope you know that.


  • claire

    You are a wonderful friend, IIWII. And a great mama. I really wish the whole Ali blogosphere internet could do this for you and give you all the strength you need to get through it. Could you enlist hubby to figure out the plans for tomorrow? Or at least half the day?
    Big hugs!

  • Je

    So sweet to know you are thinking of everyone else (including ME!). your support means so much.

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