Ugh, it came back positive. Within a couple minutes of the result posting to my medical record my phone was ringing. It was my MFM, even though it is almost 9 PM here. She is concerned that the result is a false positive given the transvaginal ultrasound I had yesterday at my OBs office. That u/s was done using gel on the transducer and I know that anything in the vagina within 24 hours of the fFN test can cause a false positive. However, now that it is positive, we have to act as if it is really positive.
Therefore, I will have the first course of steroid injections tomorrow and Friday and we’ll take it from there. Honestly, it is hard enough walking around with a 1.2cm cervix but to have that plus a positive fFN is almost too much for me. I was so stressed going into my appointment today, with a knot in my stomach that I still have.
I am worried and afraid, afraid of the unknown. A planned c-section is calm in comparison to going into labor unexpectedly or having my water break where ever I am. I am just beyond freaked out, now, that I won’t know what to do or won’t do it in time or that we’ll move into an emergency situation.
Ugh, I am scared.