I have gotten regular blocks of sleep since this weekend and, while it is only Tuesday, I am feeling much, much better, emotionally, physically, and psychologically. I simply cannot go without some regular sleep. It renders me practically delirious.
My husband and I still need to have a real follow-up conversation, but things have settled into a new normal, with him chipping in consistently (when he is home) and without me asking. And, before he does anything (give our older son a bath, perform work from home on his computer, leave for the day, go to bed at night) he asks if I need anything.
Also, I’ve taken a bit of a different approach with baby boy, being more attentive to his cues and signs and otherwise being with him more, which, in addition to making things run more smoothly (feedings, naps, overnight sleep), is good bonding for the two of us.
When I kiss baby on the mouth, especially if his mouth is open, he smiles the CUTEST smile. It melts me every time. As we approach 7 weeks (tomorrow), he is more alert (he has at least an hour of awake time after every day time feeding) and interactive. In addition to smiling and cooing (OMG, such a sweet sound!), he is trying to roll over, holding his head up fairly well, and beginning to grab for things. He is very alert when he is awake, follows everything with his big, bright blue eyes, turns his head in the direction of sounds, etc.
I am trying not to think too far ahead and just take things in hourly, daily increments (heeding the very good advice of my friend, B, who I know sporadically reads this blog and who I thank immensely). The weather here, which has been frigidly cold for my neck of the woods, is going to warm up to 80 degrees by the end of the week. That, too, helps me as I am very affected by the weather.
Things feel stable, for now.