The results of my MRI were negative, meaning no tumor, no mass, no growth. This, of course, is good news, although it has made a treatment approach more difficult. I am into my second week of oral hydrocortisone which is supposed to counteract my low cortisol and make me feel better. A standard dose would be 15mg in the morning and 5mg in the evening but in an attempt to avoid the weight gain associated with taking hydrocortisone, I’m taking 5mg in the morning and 2.5mg in the afternoon. Honestly, I can’t feel any effect.
Because the Prozac I’ve been taking to control my hot flashes is also associated with weight gain, we decided I’d wean off it and see how I did. Within a day of cutting my dose in half, my hot flashes returned with a vengeance. So, I am trying Effexor which is a different form of anti-depressant also approved for hot flash management. My doctor started me on the lowest dose which did nothing to reduce or alleviate them. Yesterday, we doubled the dose and I need to give it a full seven days to see if this dose is effective. If not, we’ll either increase it again or I’ll go back to Prozac. I have been looking forward to the switch, though, not just because Effexor might aid in weight loss but because it doesn’t have the sexual side effects that Prozac does. And, truth, in just the 9 days I’ve been on it, I can feel my long dormant libido returning. Yay for that!
Generally, I feel thick headed, worse in the afternoons/evenings than in the mornings. I’m not really sure which medication is causing it and it probably wasn’t a good idea to add two new meds at the same time, but it is what it is. The hot flashes are merciless, so bad that I will sacrifice my libido and figure to get some relief.
In other and happier news, last week I celebrated my 49th birthday. I had a lovely sushi dinner out with my husband, and brunch the following morning with some close girlfriends. We’d gone to Palm Springs for Mother’s Day weekend, and it felt like a lot of celebrating but the right amount for a non-milestone birthday. Even though I am dealing with this new health issue, I feel good I am able to work-out regularly and hard, and continue to be fueled by gratitude for the life that I have. My older son will complete 2nd grade next week and G was 2y5m yesterday. Time is marching on despite my best attempts to freeze it.
I have officially begun my journey to 50, something I am looking forward to with gleeful anticipation. The two biggest hurdles I need to cross are to find day care for G and a paying job for me, neither of which are going to be easy (we are on wait lists at two preschools for any openings they may have and have nixed a handful of others for one reason or another. I have a few more to contact, but am late to the game for fall, 2015. Worst case he won’t be able to start until next summer and that is going to put us in a financial bind). I can’t diligently look for employment until we find consistent care for him.
I am going to start daily meditation. At the root of most of what ails me is too much stress, or an unsuitable reaction to how I manage stress. Another thing to add to the list of self-improvement