Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"

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Narrowed down

There are a lot of factors that come in to play re: our options, namely finances, process, wait time, whether or not I truly want to be pregnant again, potential birth mother, sibling integration, and to a lesser degree familial perceptions of whether/how we build our family. While I am still conflicted (which is a […]

The luxury of not having to think about it

Generally speaking, most couples who decide to have children either conceive without really trying (as in, unprotected sex, often enough) or “try” by tracking ovulation is some way. They get pregnant as planned and if they want another child, start “trying” again in much the same way as they did the first time. If they’ve […]

Dead is Dead

I realize that this is a somewhat dramatic title for a post and maybe just getting this out to the universe will bring me solace. My brother died when I was eleven in a solo car accident that we were in together. I will save the details of the accident for another post except to […]

Because of my mother

I walk with my shoulders back, back straight. I walk with my feet pointed straight ahead. I do not put my elbows on the table when I eat. I write handwritten thank you notes, even to family. I am a Democrat (who was raised in a Republican household). I’ve worn bangs even though she said […]

Baby steps

I am actually feeling a bit better emotionally. Perhaps it is because I’m feeling physically better; perhaps it’s because I have some distance from leaving my job; perhaps it’s because I’m finding a rhythm to being a SAHM; perhaps it’s because the weather is improving. Or, perhaps it’s because my husband and I were finally […]

Out of sorts

Let me begin by catching you up. This has been a sick house for the last month. It started with a run-of- the-mill cold, caught by my son, at his petri dish preschool. That morphed into ear infection #1 which also included a deep chest cold. A round of anti-biotics later he was seemingly on […]

All in my head

Part of the issue with this struggle (to have another child) is that it mostly goes on in my head. Depending on the day’s events or even the sum from the week, the conversation may be different. If it’s been a rough few days of toddler tantrums or even a sick toddler, my thoughts might […]

The adoption option

I feel like such a broken record (if even in my head and only on this blog). The gnawing question about what, if anything, to do in the direction of having a second child and sibling for T.

I went to my first adoption seminar in January, 2008. I am adopted and my husband is, […]

Ghosts

I’ve experienced too much death in my four decades of life. Most tragically (and immediately life altering) was that of my brother, when I was eleven, in an accident we were both in together. It is an experience deserved of the memoir I plan to start when my employment ends in a months time. I […]

Bassinet tears

I’ve kept a lot of my son’s “big ticket” baby items which means some have been stored for almost 3 years. I saved things like the bassinet, bumbo, swing, high chair, jumperoo, and pack n play. I was originally saving them because we started trying for a sibling when T was 5 months old and […]