Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"



I need a hug

I am feeling particularly emotionally wrung out for a number of reasons. My battery needs to be recharged. And it occurred to me that what’s partially to blame is that I haven’t seen any of my friends socially in some time.

My friends are my surrogate family. They love me, warts and all, unconditionally. The […]

Thank g-d for friends

I’ve posted before about the unfortunate loss of friendships over the course of my struggle with infertility and even before. I am a bit of a lightening rod and folks either tend to love me or not (hate is too strong a word, but you get the idea). What can I say, I’m Italian and […]

What IF?

I participated in Part I of Stirrup Queen’s partnership with RESOLVE, Project IF. In doing so, I reflected a lot on what got me here; here being motherhood. I am someone’s mother. The struggle, the surgeries, the cycling, the science, the expense, the waiting, the heartache, the hoping, all paid off. And, even though I […]


I’ve experienced too much death in my four decades of life. Most tragically (and immediately life altering) was that of my brother, when I was eleven, in an accident we were both in together. It is an experience deserved of the memoir I plan to start when my employment ends in a months time. I […]

The struggle

The struggle. That’s how infertility is most often referred.  It is defined as “a task or goal requiring much effort to accomplish or achieve”.  And, at the root that’s what it is.  But beyond that, infertility is a thief, robbing you of many things: hope, money, time, pleasure, spontaneity, intimacy, normalcy, relationships.

The toll it takes […]