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Our Journey

2002 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #1

2003 1st consult with an RE, you know, just in case

2003 Got Married (at 37 (me) & 34 (DH) years old)

2003/2004 Naturally conceived pregnancies BFPs #1, #2, & #3 and miscarriages #1, #2, #3

2005 Uterine Fibroid Surgery #2

2005 IVF #1, BFN #1

2005 IUIs #1 and #2, just because, BFN #2 & #3

2005 FET from IVF #1, BFN #4

2006 Exploratory surgery to remove scar tissue from fibroid sugery #2

2006 IVF #2 (w PGD), BFP #4

2006 Emergency cerclage for IC @ 16w6d (5 months + 1 week of complete bed rest at home ensues)

2007 Our son is born @ 38w by scheduled c-section

2007 IVF #3 for baby #2, BFN #5

2007 IVF #4, BFP #5, miscarriage #4

2008 IVF #5, BFP #6, miscarriage #5

2008 IVF #6, BFP #7, miscarriage #6

2008 DE IVF #7, BFN #6

2009 DEFET #8, cancelled, embryos don't thaw

2010 Decide to adopt domestically

12.17.10 Profile is live with our agency

November 2011 Consult with RE re: donated embryo cycle

Early January 2012 Cleared to proceed with deFET

January 2012 Freeze our profile

1.20.12 deFET begins
2.12.12 eSET of one compacted morula
2.22.12 BFN

3.23.12 deFET #2 begins
4.14.12 transfer 3 embryos (1-8 cell, 1-5 cell, 1-4 cell)
4.22.12 + HPT
4.24.12 Beta #1 = 48.4
4.26.12 Beta #2 = 125.7
4.30.12 Beta #3 = 777.8
5.11.12 1st U/S - Singleton!
7.12.12 It's a Boy!
12.26.12 C-section: Baby G is born, 9#5oz, 20.5"

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Teasing it out

The thought has crossed my mind before and is on my mind again that perhaps I need therapy to help tease this out. I have both my BA and MA in psychology and have gone to therapy at different points in my life to help untangle thoughts and feelings usually around a particular life event […]

Inching forward

I still cannot believe what a laborious process processing information is. I mean, how long can it really take to make a decision and move along that path, one thing at a time? Well, clearly it takes years, and in my case, three to be exact. And, I worried all along that the longer it […]

Leaning

I am going down two paths, embryo donation and domestic adoption, simultaneously, but I am finding myself leaning ever so slightly in the direction of adoption.

When we started trying again when our son was 5 months old, I very much wanted to be pregnant again and to have children close in age. The […]

Forbidden Fruit Syndrome

If you’ve ever dieted on a program that restricts or denies food options (no carbs, or no refined sugar, or no fat, etc) then you know the psychology of denial. The more we are told we can’t have something, the more we want it, often to the point of obsession. Tell me I can’t have […]

Narrowed down

There are a lot of factors that come in to play re: our options, namely finances, process, wait time, whether or not I truly want to be pregnant again, potential birth mother, sibling integration, and to a lesser degree familial perceptions of whether/how we build our family. While I am still conflicted (which is a […]

The post in which I laugh out loud

We stopped ART a year ago this weekend when the FET from our donor cycle was canceled. I seriously thought that once I decompressed from the 2 years of active treatment, we’d be prepared move forward with adoption. The groundwork was already laid in that I’ve had two consultations, have been to three seminars and […]

The luxury of not having to think about it

Generally speaking, most couples who decide to have children either conceive without really trying (as in, unprotected sex, often enough) or “try” by tracking ovulation is some way. They get pregnant as planned and if they want another child, start “trying” again in much the same way as they did the first time. If they’ve […]

Baby steps

I am actually feeling a bit better emotionally. Perhaps it is because I’m feeling physically better; perhaps it’s because I have some distance from leaving my job; perhaps it’s because I’m finding a rhythm to being a SAHM; perhaps it’s because the weather is improving. Or, perhaps it’s because my husband and I were finally […]

All in my head

Part of the issue with this struggle (to have another child) is that it mostly goes on in my head. Depending on the day’s events or even the sum from the week, the conversation may be different. If it’s been a rough few days of toddler tantrums or even a sick toddler, my thoughts might […]

The adoption option

I feel like such a broken record (if even in my head and only on this blog). The gnawing question about what, if anything, to do in the direction of having a second child and sibling for T.

I went to my first adoption seminar in January, 2008. I am adopted and my husband is, […]